Wednesday, August 22, 2012

I will Wait

August 22, 2012~I will Wait

Chris and I have been busy getting back into the swing of things with work and allowing our summer to come to a close. It really was a perfect blend of relaxation and exhilaration. My favorite season is peeking around the corner and I swear I can taste it in the air. Fall is coming.

Yes it's still almost 90 degrees here and humid, the cicadas still sing in chorus, but I can feel the shift approaching. We officially have ALL of our adoption paperwork turned into the agency. It took awhile, especially the personal autobiographies, but it was worth all of the effort.

This agency has asked that we write a letter to the prospective Birth parents or Birth mother. We had some guidance but it was still very difficult. The prospective birth mother or birth parents will have many letters to read and chose from and that is ultimately how they will pick the adoptive parents. No large expansive files, no photo books or videos, just a simple letter.  Here is an excerpt of our letter:


Dear Birth mother,

I can’t imagine all of the different emotions you must be feeling right now or how difficult this decision must be for you. The fear, the anxiety over making the right choice, all of the questions and concerns swirling around in your head must be overwhelming. We want to assure you that no matter what you decide, it will be the right choice for you and we want to thank you for being strong enough to make it.

We thank you for your personal sacrifice and for helping making our dreams of a family a reality. Our heart break over our struggles to have a child will not be in vain and we will know without a shadow of a doubt that this was the path we were always meant to be on….because it brought us the child we were always meant to have.

Thank you and much love~

Amanda and Chris

We were also asked to list reasons why we were pursing adoption or "bulleted points" that would give the birth mother or birth parents a glimpse into the type of people we are. Here are a few of our points:

·      I can’t wait to make forts with you out of blankets and stacked books
·      I want to bake Christmas cookies with you and decorate gingerbread men with tons of colored icing.
·      Have you in the kitchen with Susu as she makes her famous Thanksgiving Turkey and watch the Macy’s Day parade together as we sip hot chocolate.
·      Chris can’t wait to be Santa and eat the cookies you left for him on the fire place.
·      I promise to sing you to sleep every night  “You are my Sunshine”
We can’t wait to put you in the cutest pj’s and wake up on a Saturday morning to pancakes and music
·      Going to our neighborhood park and sliding down slides together. Pushing you on a swing
·      Wandering down the toy aisle and letting you pick out your favorite
·      Reading stories to you every night before we tuck you in
·      Taking walks with you around our neighborhood in your stroller
·      Letting you pick out your favorite cookie at the bakery counter in the grocery store
·      Using our imaginations to become astronauts, pirates, princesses or our favorite animals.
·      I can’t wait to cheer you on whether it’s a sporting event, a concert, an art show, a gold star you received on your schoolwork, or just being the amazing person that I already know you will be. 
·      Hearing your laugh for the first time and knowing that it will be the most beautiful sound I will ever hear.
·      Teaching you how to tie your shoes.
·      Let’s catch fire flies and get ice cream from our neighborhood ice cream truck (he drives down our street every single day at 3:30 in the afternoon)
·      I promise to always be patient with you. To be your biggest supporter and fan, to always encourage you to be you no matter what. 
·      To kiss your “Boo-boo’s” away
·      Teaching you to say “please” and “thank you” and to always apologize when you are sorry.
·      To watch my husband Chris sing and dance with you barefoot in our kitchen to his favorite songs.
·      Tucking you in, turning on your night light, and making sure there aren’t any monsters in your closet.
·      Filling Easter eggs with all sorts of goodies and watching you find them
·      Picking out a family pet together
·      I can’t wait to introduce you to your cousins and I just know you all will be the best of friends.
·      Teaching you how to ride a bike. Putting your little helmet on your head and buying the coolest streamers for your bike handles.
·      Teaching you how to write your name in the air with a sparkler on the 4th of July.
·      Letting your grandparents “Susu”, “Papa”, “Grammy” and “Pop” all spoil you.
·      Explaining to you that you can’t always get your way and that there are consequences to our actions.
·      Giving you a “bubble beard” in the bath tub
·      Starting a hope chest for our child and teaching them all about their birth parents. 

I realize reading some of these may seem simple and obvious, but we've never had those opportunities. Never had a chance to do those things with our child as a family. Those little everyday things that people take for granted, we've never had the chance to. 

We are setting the date for our first at home visit from our social worker Rebecca for the second part of September. She's been lovely to work with thus far and incredibly supportive. We are also registered for our first "Parenting" classes and CPR training next week at St. Vincent's hospital and look forwarding to completing all of our requirements. 

I took the title to this post from one of my favorite songs, "I will Wait" by the band Mumford and Son's. I've referenced them before in posts and I am obsessed with their music. It's so uplifting and honestly heartbreaking at times but this new song, to be released on their new album out in September, is so very amazing. I can't express how much I love this song. 

"I will Wait" Lyrics

I came home, like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
Days of dust, which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

And I'll Kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait I will wait for you

So break my step, and relent
You forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some way, shake the excess

And I will wait I'll wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait I will wait for you

Now I'll be bold, as well as strong
Use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh and fix my eyes
A tethered mind free from the lies

And I'll Kneel down
Wait for now
I'll kneel down
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And Bow my head
Keep my heart slow

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you


Yes little Baby Baker, I will wait for you.

Much love,

Amanda & Chris




1 comment:

  1. This is beautiful and such a selfless testimony to you guys as well as the birth mother. God Bless you and may Him make this wait shorter as possible.

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